Think - a poem to addiction

I’m trying to figure it out

What our love is actually about

Is it the conversations

Or more the sexual sensations

I really like you for who you are

But is it enough for me, my thoughts are quite bizarre

So I’m trying to figure it out

What our love is actually about

Is it the safe feeling when I’m no longer afraid

I do love you and all your flaws

But is it dangerous to live in such awes

So I’m trying to figure it out

What our love is actually about

Is it because you look so beautiful in the sun

Or is it because we have so much fun

I still love you even after the lights

But is it threatening my own Wings to take flights.

I'm trying to figure it out

What our love is actually about

Is it the drugs that we use

Or is it this anxious feeling of falling back in abuse

I used to love you and the question is why

Is it the angry moments where you blacken my eye

I'm trying to figure it out

What our love was actually about

And what I still don’t understand

And what I still can’t comprehend

Is why you left me so lonely and broken

While everything is still left unspoken

I’m still trying to figure it out

If it was actually love you talked about

Or if it was just one of your fantasies

You promised me the world while they were false beliefs.

So here I am still trying to figure it out

Why it wasn’t love you’ve talked about

I’m still angry with myself and you too

Cause you left me in the nothing, just out of the blue.